Saturday, September 9, 2017

100 days of poetry: Days 16-25

25. AGE                                                                                          

Under the weary leather flesh
an umbrella frame flexes
and reminds the world that it isn't dead yet

No one hears the droning gush of wind
or heeds the warnings let forth
from that half-crusted ancient orb.

Scattered seedlings, carried off by crows
turn their oblivious roots elsewhere
unhindered by connections they can't see.

A shadow ghost of meaning
at the edges of a season yet to come
drop branches in oppressive summer heat.

The crows won't answer your pleading.
Even roots cannot escape the blaze
of blackened yearning.






24. FATHER'S DAY                                                              

For years, we joked about
your "male answer syndrome"
perhaps to make up for
a childhood of fact checking.
But it was remarkably accurate,
your running commentary—
you were the smartest guy I ever knew—
and, somehow, that is all
I seem to have of you, now.

You never wore your heart
anywhere visible—
perhaps that constant flow
of data helped to hide it—
but Mom always intuited
some depth of feeling underneath,
and, stung sometimes
by our native unfeelingness,
she'd prompt us to talk to you.

In those moments
I would see a hesitation,
the guard let down,
a shining eye, an earnest grin,
and be reminded
that a human lurked behind the wall.






23. DOLDRUMS                                  

Saturday afternoon in the middle of June
a hot sunny day with nothing to do
birthday has come and gone
vacation trip has come and gone
the oldest kid is off at work,
the middle kid is holed up in his room
snapped chatting and blasting nirvana
the youngest has drifted off with a buddy
to watch TV in his basement.

The cat is panting in the shade
of a drooping birch tree
that rustles in the hot breeze
and if you look at its leaves,
you will think it was something
momentous, self-important…
but its trunk, camouflaged
in a striking white pattern
that belies mundane functionality
does not move, cannot move,
tied to its place in the earth
by its intransigent root system
which does what it can to sustain.

The birch leaves would like to
fly off with the wind,
swirl around the pigeons,
play with the children walking past,
but any who do that
must separate themselves from the
life-sustaining branches, trunk, roots,
and their swansong of freedom
will be their funeral dirge.
                                        





22. THE BEST LAID PLANS 

When our children were small--
tender unformed souls,
inchoate shadows of their future selves--
we swore we'd never let them
vandalize those blank slates with
the violent graffiti of video games.

They played with toys handmade in Norway:
wooden trains and painted drums,
lawn games and puzzles.
And books! Of course. Lots of books.

Books about wizards who longed for their parents,
books about aardvarks who fight and make up,
books about time-traveling treehouses,
talking animals
and books with pictures to find.

Pre-teens, they played real sports
with teams, and equipment,
and all the trappings.
They practiced real instruments—
trumpet, trombone, and sax,
and they read real books, without pictures.
And still they never plugged in to video.

But something changed at puberty
and after the dam was breached
by that first innocuous Wii
which was supposed to be about
moving around, Just Dance and Wii Golf
it morphed into Pokemon battles

then Mario Kart, and then Smash Bros
and soon it was mindless thumb violence:
Call of Duty, Overwatch,
Assassin's Creed, and now

books are a foregone conclusion.






21. SEVEN ENTROPY HAIKU 

Brushing your teeth
the yellowed enamel, the worn caps,
staving off the decay

Filling up the car—
you ignore globe warming—
the freeway demands a full tank.
                                       
Is the utility bill due?
First, checking account… Second,
where did you file it?

Allocating the IRA
is a first world problem, trying to predict
the economy 20 years out.
                               
Trimming the nails
does it always have to remind you how they
keep going after you die?

Charge your iphone battery:
your only one way to prove it isn't yet
completely superior.

Haircuts— sigh.
Why must we impose fashion
on our naked scalps.





20. THE IRREPRESSIBLE JOY OF A RETURNED FRIEND

I don't know why it is, but I feel like there are certain people who, just being in their presence make life wonderful—somehow there is some pixie dust they sprinkle, there is some magic they bring to banal, quotidien events. As though somehow the forces of the universe change for them, the inexorable pull toward increased entropy is temporarily stilled, and for the few minutes you get to spend with them, the cares of the world melt away and you can truly enjoy yourself, lose yourself in the moment and not notice the tooth rot and sciatica and not think about the impending balloon mortgage payment. Pour a glass of champagne and share it with them, for they are like the bubbles and the yeasty splash of liquid joy that you can taste instead of your usual tap water.






19. SWIMMINGLY

Another day of swimming laps and I float along the clean blue water of the Country Club pool not at all missing the murky green crowded water of the YMCA, out here in the east foothills, the mansions nestled around the golf course, and I think about how after my amazing book of poetry sells for millions and I am not a pathetic detritus of the capitalist machinery like Dustin Hoffman in death of a salesman, but can afford my own palace here, I will help the poor Mexicans by improving their school and I will bring cultural excellence to the neighborhood that only celebrates rap and graffiti and grand theft auto, and while I am skimming along the water, unable to stop or I will surely die, the weighty thoughts call me in over my head as down I am pulled to the bottom. 






18. THE GOLDEN GLOW OF THE FAMILY ROOM 

And what is a lyric poem, anyway?
Is it just a poem with a lot of adjectives? 
Is it one where you break our astringent modern rules,
and inject purple prose?

When you walk into your living room at night,
And the wall sconces are gaily lighting a scene 
Of domestic tranquility, kids on their phones,
Wife reading the Times,
Is it a poem where you talk about the quality of light in the room?
Where you rhapsodize about the sense of harmony among to warring brothers,
Where you eulogize the discriminating reading of the wife?

Where you don't talk about the politics in the headlines,
Don't editorialize about the mindless Netflix shows?











17. COCKTAIL PARTY

Après six semaines des constructions
de bordels dans la cuisine
de dégâts partout, de dîners en carton
une invitation de notre voisine : 
cocktail et apéro chez elle.

Des tas de petits plats d'amuse-gueule:
poivrons grillés doux et tendres, 
un foie gras à patiner, onctueux,
sur des petits morceaux d'un pain
mousseux et herbeux aux citrouilles
et confiture riche de figues aussi
un boisson de rhum, jus d'orange et de grenadine
qui allait très bien avec olives amers et salés, 
des chips et croquant avec dip d'artichauts
des saucisses grillées succulents
et des personnages sympathiques,
qui nous distrairent de nos peines. 







16. FLAG DAY II                                                                               

There is a worse desecration of the flag that even the most ardent defenders of the flag never seem to complain about. A disrespect, not of its physical form, not of that square of cloth, but more perniciously of the ideals of freedom, self-reliance, equality, that the flag is supposed to represent: Men who fly our American flag over the overseas factories where child labor and exploited workers toil, and not even for any purported good to the American people, but for their own selfish and un-American profits while hiding behind our flag. Or corporations who fly our symbol over the environmental disasters they create in other countries? Isn't that a worse degradation of the flag, to drag it in the muck behind their ugly havoc? Or what in my mind is the most disturbing of all, the anti-Democratic mercenaries who wrap themselves in our flag and thereby sully the once-respected name of America as they destabilize the sovereignty of other nations, assassinate intellectuals and democratically elected leaders, and skulk behind thrones propped up with American firepower. I wish everyone in this country would pay less attention to the silly college kids and their little temper tantrums than to this form of desecration--even if their pious sham flags never touch the ground.


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